I was supposed to make my second financial sorcery post tonight, but Independence Day festivities got in the way.
I have however collected a few thoughts regarding the HGA thing that grew out of the Five Things thing that I started a couple weeks ago, so here we go…
I am not going to comment about each and every point, and like I said, I think that the HGA is a very worthy and worthwhile thing. I really just wanted to comment on two points.
The first issue I want to deal with is trust. This theme is really at the core of RO’s post: The HGA and the Celestials are our brothers, they know what is best for us and will never do something to interrupt who we are meant to be with or what we are meant to have.
I completely and utterly disagree.
Basically, I reject the notion that this is all some pre-written fucked up kabuki dance where there are people we are meant to be with, things we are meant to do, and things we are not meant to do. If that fatalistic idea of God as micro-manager is true, then any alteration thereof is also part of that plan so it is not even worth thinking that way. If there it is not true, then we have to take some responsibility for ourselves, including our initiatory paths.
The Celestials DO NOT have an intimate understanding of the flesh or the world we live in. If you summon an archangel and constantly petition it to make your side business grow, what often happens (this has happened to me, RO, and several other people) is that you lose the day job that is paying the bills. The Archangel is all like “what? You needed more time to work on it, so I gave you more time”. This is not the archangel knowing whats best for you. This is the archangel doing what you asked it to and making a mess of things because it doesnt understand (or have much interest in) the other minutia of your life. Those things are YOUR job to deal with, and that includes making sure that the help you summon in understands your plan.
Yes, things will work out in the end but its not because things work out according to some plan written by a detail obsessed divine author of creation. It is because unless you are mentally disabled, you will work out a new plan. You make yourself happy in the new situation and look back and say “see, if it wasnt for this event or that, I wouldnt be here”. Well, yeah. But you would be somewhere else, probably just as happy if not moreso.
If you are married, have kids, and responsibilities, and decide to undertake the HGA working, or another initatory process that is known for completely re-arranging your life in a rough and unpleasant way, I think it is very responsible to say “nope, I think I will wait on that.”
I can think of two separate acquaintances who did something like that. It’s true they look at themselves as having gone through the fire and come out with more than they lost. Their kids and former wives however see it quite differently. In one case the kid is still scarred by the fact that his dad doesn’t really seem to want to see him anymore.
The other idea I wanted to explore further is this idea of loss as a necessary part of the initiatory process. Most people experience a drastic loss during their initiatory process. This varries from mental breakdowns (as nearly happened when I was doing the HGA work), to physical breakdowns (as happened with William Bloom), or even something as drastic as incarceration as happened with Mike. This is one reason that I recommend people do the HGA thing either early in their career before they have family and so on, or do it later in life when the kids are grown and their life can probably use some good shaking up or at least handle it.
That said, one of the most powerful powers gained through that kind of initiation is the ability to learn and grow without having to go through that shit again. You not only learn, but you learn HOW to learn so that it doesn’t take as much out of you.
Also, there are some paths that are bumpier than others inherently. Choosing the right teacher or path can make a huge difference in just how much turmoil you need to go through. Some people that get born with enough of that in previous lives that they can attain without having such drastic periods of dissolution.
So thanks Baphomet, for everything you have done, but now that I am 39 with kids and a house and a successful business, I will take a bit less Solve with my Coagulae thank you.